Hello, 2019! Thoughts about the New Year

Hello, 2019! I honestly don't know where 2018 went. It just came and left.

2018 wasn't my greatest year, although it wasn't my worst either. I travelled, I graduated, I met my boyfriend, he moved in, I made new friendships and I had a good time. But I also felt lost, I felt depressed and learned a lot about myself but still don't know who I actually am. Do you?

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Many many years ago I was diagnosed with depression, although looking back at it and knowing what I know today. I don't believe that is a diagnosis, but we can talk about that another time. But I felt so lost, I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, I couldn't get out of bed. I wasn't sad but I started to think about why are we actually here? What's the point? (note: not in a suicidal way) I just couldn't understand why we are all here on this earth to just live and die. Is that it? I'm not a religious person, but I am a spiritual one. None of us knows what's going to happen when we die, which can be both an exciting and scary thought. Some people of believing we will enter a better place, some people think that will be it (I really hope not). But after all these intense deep thoughts about the meaning of life and death, I then came to realise.

We have no idea what we are doing here. It's not just me that have no idea, we all have no idea.

So instead of dwelling on what the meaning of life or what your calling is (creds to them that know) why not just try to make the best of it. Enjoy life, do what you love, don't take everything so seriously (can we please leave that in 2018, jeez).

Life is just how we perceive it. We create our own lives, we are the "God" of our life.

We only get to be in our bodies for a limited time. Should we celebrate that? Shouldn't we only do things that make us happy? Shouldn't we go and create the life we want?

With all that in mind, I've come to some new year resolutions or guidelines I want to live by for this year. As I do have a really good feeling about this year.

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1. Take the pressure off

I think most of us put a lot of pressure on ourselves. We expect too much of ourselves and we are too hard on ourselves if we don't make it. I'm guilty in this. I've cried if I cooked a meal that didn't turn out the way I wanted it to turn out, I talk myself down if I forgot something, I look back at 2018 and kick myself because I didn't achieve what I wanted to achieve. Is this ridiculous? Yes, it is.

This year I want to have the mindset of I just want to see if I can do that, I just want to see if I can buy a new house, I just want to see if I can buy myself a new car, I just want to see if I can make enough money so I can travel the world. If I want it bad enough I will make it happen. If not, not a big deal, try again. As they say, mistakes and failures are one step closer to success.

2. Read, listen and learn

I feel like I'm having some sort of identity crisis. Who is Dina? I tend to change my mind about this all the time. And at the age of 27, I still don't know who I am or what I'm supposed to do. I know I like to help people, make people happy. This is probably one of the main reasons why I became a nutritionist. Helping people with their health is probably one of the most incredible things you can do.

So this year I'm going to educate myself more, read more, listen to audiobooks, watch documentaries. Increase my knowledge so I can better help people and myself.

3. Invest in me

I'm going to put myself first. I always used to do this, but over the years I feel like I've invested more time in people around me. Which is, of course, good and necessary. But a lot of us forget to think about ourselves. How can you help people if you're not happy and healthy? If everyone invested in themselves, loved themselves and looked after themselves, wouldn't the world be a better place?

Do you have any similar New Years Resolutions? Let me know in the comments!

DC x