I have had a think about how I want this blog to be. And I want to be more personal with you guys. I want to connect with you a bit more and share about my own life and health.
And I would like to start with sharing something that is very personal and scary.
Last week I found a lump in my right breast.
Early last week I started experiencing pain in my chest. It felt like my chest had been bruised but I haven't experienced any trauma or done any exercises in the gym that could cause the pain.
I didn't think too much about it.
Then, on Thursday evening, I was touching my breasts and realised my right breast didn't feel the same as the left one.
I found a large hard lump.
I immediately got a bad stomach feeling. Fuck.
I've experienced lumps in my breast before, and went to the GP, got referred to the breast screening clinic and had them checked. Luckily that time, it was nothing to worry about. But this time I found a large - size of an apricot - lump.
Every thought you can imagine went through my head. How have I not felt this before? Do I have breast cancer? Is my implant raptured? Do I have to do chemo? Am I going to lose my hair? Would I even want to do chemo? Do I have to undergo surgery? Do I have to remove my implants? Could I actually die soon?
The next morning I called my GP and my plastic surgeon. I had breast implants put in September 2017.
My GP said they don't have any available appointments until April 18th and asked if I was okay to wait that long. I was thinking - I don't know, am I? But she said I could come in earlier for an emergency appointment.
My plastic surgeon said he wanted to see me, but would maybe advice to see my GP as well.
Over the weekend the pain got worse. It's spread up towards my armpits. It hurts when I breathe and when I use my arms. I am experiencing aches, shooting pain and general discomfort. I called NHS 24 and they told me just to take painkillers and to see my GP next week.
Today, I still am experiencing pain and discomfort. But I have an appointment with my plastic surgeon later this evening. And I will go in for an emergency appointment to my GP tomorrow morning, unless the plastic surgeon says I don’t have to.
Am I worried? A little bit. However, I do not think it is cancerous. According to The National Breast Cancer Foundation, breast cancer isn't usually showing symptoms of pain. It can be so many things. My guess is that it is related to the implant. But it could be something else too. It could be nothing. But I feel like something isn’t quite right.
Either way, as a woman, experiencing any form of unknown pain or lumps in my breast is scary! But there is no point thinking the worst.
So I'm sharing this so all you women that are reading this can go and check your breast right this minute. We are advised to do it every month, but we forget. And I hope this can be a little reminder for you. If you're a man reading this, send this post to your sister, wife, girlfriend, mom, auntie or friend. Ladies - go and check your breasts!
Here is a video on how to check your breasts for breast cancer symptoms. And if you find anything that doesn't feel right - get yourself to the GP and get it checked. Last time I did that, the doctors at the breast screening clinic was so nice and told me I did the right thing even though it was nothing.
I will keep you posted on what happens next!